"And now for something completely different."

2007-01-12T13:14:00.000-04:00

Hm.. I decided to change from blogger.com to myblog.de
I don't know.
I think I'm just more used to it ;)

And I have a looooooot more experience with it ;)

So,if you want to pay me a visit ---> http://myblog.de/weird.skunk

So long
Dani ;)
It was a pleasure.

2006-12-26T19:01:00.000-04:00

Fuck..
Ich hasse es.
So a scheiss.

Bin mies drauf.

I ho mi SO vadommt obgrackert...fia was?

fia nix.. goanix und wida nix.

............

2006-12-23T19:18:00.001-04:00

Hm..

Miau? =^.^=

Jeje.

Sooo.. yesterday was soo awesome(at least some parts..the most :P)

I met with Robin at 6 at Dali. There I got to know Alejandra,Matheo's little sister(she came a couple of days ago from columbia extra for his b-day i think).
Eli and Sergio were also there.
So we all started drinking a bit and played some "drinkin' games" ;D But I didn'tdrink very much after all.
Later(ok..hm.. 7:30? XD), Sergio had to leave to go to another party and the rest of us decided to go to "Las Islas" (it's a place where a lot of good and cheap food is selled -> masses of people*lol*).I called two other friends,Jorge and Claure to come, but they didn't-.-" grml.
AH! Before I forget it: I stopped smoking ^^ Today's Saturday,so it is my hm..6 th day ;)
I'm proud of myself. jeje :P
Jeje..yeah. now i'm gonna live forever(and you're all screwed XD)
Anyway..after eating a Pizza with Robin we wen't to a little sidestreet and they kept drinking(I wasn't much in the mood of drinking anymore..). Eli bought some milk XD
Hm.. then I went for maybe half an hour to some other place and came back then.
I felt better. Not much.. but a bit.. hm..

Then we went to "LaTirana" and were hanging around there. And we saw a pretty bloddy fight between some drunks lol ^^
Hm.. at about 12 I went home..I don't know-i was kinda tired and so. Dunno.
I said goodbye to them all and left.
But somehow I got to share a cab with a friend of Robin o_O"
His name was Jorge or so.
Hm.. anyway,we talked a bit about how we got to know Robin and Matheo and then I was already at home ;)

Hm.. I never thought I would get so close to Robin and Matheo. When she first got in our school I didn't really talk to her. But them somehow we managed to hang around a lot and after the incident at the Calvert school I would say we are pretty good friends. And her boyfriend Matheo is also a laugh XD
I really have a good time with them(even when I'm mostly as "violinista"lol)

Hm... lately my mood is going up and down so fast that in fact it starts to really annoy me-.-"
I'm always between sad,worried,happy,nervous,tired,cheerful,mad,.....
Who wouldn't get crazy???

Hm... btw. did I mention that I HATE christmas?
Like I hate my B-day(ok.I actually start hating christmas more than my b-day.scary.)

I mean.. Christmas is supposed to me a Family thing. But hey!
I don't have a fucking family.
At least not that type of family that spends their days happily and smiling together.Seriously.

I mean...since Monday I'm living with my Mum at my auns apartement again!Fuck! And tomorrow is Christmas. Pf...

I hate it all..
Why can't I wake up and it's already January??
Oh why god..? -.-grml

Aaaaand.. I think I'm gonna kill my cousin!

She slept yesterday with her Ex-Boyfriend.And no..that's not all.
She is...was afucking damn virgin!

She.is.so.stupid.
If I wouldn't love her to death..grrr..

Hm.. girls are stupid I suppose.

At least a couple of them..

Fare well folks!

2006-12-23T19:18:00.000-04:00

Hm..

Miau? =^.^=

Jeje.

Sooo.. yesterday was soo awesome(at least some parts..the most :P)

I met with Robin at 6 at Dali(a coffee). There I got to know Alejandra,Matheo's little sister(she came a couple of days ago from columbia extra for his b-day i think).
Eli and Sergio were also there.
So we all started drinking a bit and played some "drinkin' games" ;D But I didn'tdrink very much after all.
Later(ok..hm.. 7:30? XD), Sergio had to leave to go to another party and the rest of us decided to go to "Las Islas" (it's a place where a lot of good and cheap food is selled -> masses of people*lol*).I called two other friends,Jorge and Claure to come, but they didn't-.-" grml.
AH! Before I forget it: I stopped smoking ^^ Today's Saturday,so it is my hm..6 th day ;)
I'm proud of myself. jeje :P
Jeje..yeah. now i'm gonna live forever(and you're all screwed XD)
Anyway..after eating a Pizza with Robin we wen't to a little sidestreet and they kept drinking(I wasn't much in the mood of drinking anymore..). Eli bought some milk XD
Hm.. then I went for maybe half an hour to some other place and came back then.
I felt better. Not much.. but a bit.. hm..

Then we went to "LaTirana" and were hanging around there. And we saw a pretty bloddy fight between some drunks lol ^^
Hm.. at about 12 I went home..I don't know-i was kinda tired and so. Dunno.
I said goodbye to them all and left.
But somehow I got to share a cab with a friend of Robin o_O"
His name was Jorge or so.
Hm.. anyway,we talked a bit about how we got to know Robin and Matheo and then I was already at home ;)

Hm.. I never thought I would get so close to Robin and Matheo. When she first got in our school I didn't really talk to her. But them somehow we managed to hang around a lot and after the incident at the Calvert school I would say we are pretty good friends. And her boyfriend Matheo is also a laugh XD
I really have a good time with them(even when I'm mostly as "violinista"lol)

Hm... lately my mood is going up and down so fast that in fact it starts to really annoy me-.-"
I'm always between sad,worried,happy,nervous,tired,cheerful,mad,.....
Who wouldn't get crazy???

Hm... btw. did I mention that I HATE christmas?
Like I hate my B-day(ok.I actually start hating christmas more than my b-day.scary.)

I mean.. Christmas is supposed to me a Family thing. But hey!
I don't have a fucking family.
At least not that type of family that spends their days happily and smiling together.Seriously.

I mean...since Monday I'm living with my Mum at my auns apartement again!Fuck! And tomorrow is Christmas. Pf...

I hate it all..
Why can't I wake up and it's already January??
Oh why god..? -.-grml

Aaaaand.. I think I'm gonna kill my cousin!

She slept yesterday with her Ex-Boyfriend.And no..that's not all.
She is...was afucking damn virgin!

She.is.so.stupid.
If I wouldn't love her to death..grrr..

Hm.. girls are stupid I suppose.

At least a couple of them..

Fare well folks!

2006-12-22T15:39:00.000-04:00

Hm..
Boooooring.
Arg.
Nothing interesting is happening here lately.
Except the fact that me and my mum live in my aunts apartement.again.
Hm.. and so if I want to use the internet I have to go to the nearest Internet Coffee. -.-"

Anyway.. yesterday after posting my very intelligent post (yeah.. i was tired and bored XD),I met with Vlady(also known as "Cara de Poto" ->Assface )and we went to "Dumbo"(a restaurant.pretty good food <3 <3) to meet with Sergio and Joy. Later Diego and Ani also came.

I felt a little out of place because Joy,Vla,Sergio and Diego are going in one class and so the most time they talked while me and Ani were more quiet..

Then we decided to go to Vlady's Apartement(actually a skyscraper(is that the right word for that? hm.??) with 5 floors o_O But it belongs to his dad and most of the time he lives with his mum.)
There Sergio,Diego,Vla and me watched "The Break-up".. jeje ^^

After all it was quite fun yesterday..
And today I have to go at six to "Dali" cause today is Matheos B-day.

Anyway..
see ya!

2006-12-21T13:00:00.000-04:00

Hm..
God I'm tired.
Don't ask me why,'cause honestly can't answer this question .
I just sleep,eat and watch TV the whole day.
I mean, the most productive thing I did today was showering the dog(something reeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeally neccessary).
Hm.. showering a dog is much easier than showering a cat.
I think it's all the missing scratching,biting and furiously growling.

Anyway..

see you folks!

2006-12-14T13:13:00.000-04:00

**pick the stereotype that fits you**

I'M SKINNY, so I MUST be bulimic.
I'm EMO, so I MUST cut my wrists.
I'm a NEGRO so I MUST carry a gun.
I go to a grammar school, I MUST be a rich snob.
I'm BLONDE, so I MUST be a stupid ditz.
I'm JAMAICAN so I MUST smoke weed.
I'm ASIAN, so I MUST be smart.
I'm NOT LIKE EVERYONE ELSE, so I MUST be a loser.
I'm JEWISH, so I MUST be greedy.
I'm GAY, so I MUST have AIDS.
I'm a LESBIAN, so I MUST have a sex-tape.
I'm ARAB, so I MUST be a terrorist.
I SPEAK MY MIND, so I MUST be a bitch.
I'm RELIGIOUS, so I MUST shove my beliefs down your throat.
I'm an ATHEIST, so I MUST hate the world.
I DON'T HAVE A RELIGION, so I MUST be "evil" and not have any morals.
I'm REPUBLICAN, so I MUST not care about poor people.
I'm DEMOCRAT, so I MUST not believe in being responsible.
I am LIBERAL, so I MUST be gay.
I'm SOUTHERN, so I MUST be white trash.
I TAKE ANTI-DEPRESSANTS, so I MUST be crazy.
I'm a GUY, so I MUST only want to get into your pants.
I'm IRISH, so I MUST have a bad drinking problem.
I'm INDIAN, so I MUST own a convenient store.
I'm NATIVE AMERICAN, so I MUST dance around a fire screaming like a savage.
I'm a CHEERLEADER, so I MUST be a whore...
I'm a DANCER, So i must be stupid, stuck up, and a whore.
I wear SKIRTS a lot, so I MUST be a slut.
I'm a PUNK, so I MUST do drugs.
I'm YOUNG, so I MUST be naive.
I'm RICH, so I MUST be a conceited snob.
I WEAR BLACK, so I MUST be a goth or emo.
I'm a WHITE GIRL, so I MUST be a nagging, steal-your-money kind of girlfriend.
I'm CUBAN, so I MUST spend my spare time rolling cigars.
I'm MEXICAN, so I MUST have hopped the border.
I'm NOT A VIRGIN, so I MUST be easy.
I FELL IN LOVE WITH A MARRIED MAN, so I MUST be a home-wrecking whore.
I'm a TEENAGE MOM, so I MUST be an irresponsible slut.
I'm GERMAN, so I MUST wear my socks with my sandals.
I'm ITALIAN, so I must be a gangster.
I'm EGYPTIAN, so I must be a TERRORIST!!
I'm PRETTY, so I MUST not be a virgin.
I HAVE STRAIGHT A'S, so I MUST have no social life.
I DYE MY HAIR CRAZY COLORS, so I MUST be looking for attention.
I DRESS IN UNUSUAL WAYS so I MUST be looking for attention.
I'm INTO THEATER & ART, so I MUST be a homosexual.
I'm a VEGETARIAN, so I MUST be a crazy political activist.
I HAVE A BUNCH OF GUY FRIENDS, so I MUST be fucking them all.
I HAVE A BUNCH OF GIRLS WHO ARE FRIENDS, so I MUST be gay.
I have BiG BOOBS, so I MUST be a hoe.
I'm COLOMBIAN, so I MUST be a drug dealer.
I WEAR WHAT I WANT, so I MUST be a poser.
I'm RUSSIAN, so I MUST be cool and thats how Russians roll.
I'm GERMAN, so I MUST be a Nazi.
I hang out with GAYS, so i must be GAY TOO.
I'm BRAZILIAN, so I MUST have a BIG BUTT.
I'm PUERTO RICAN, so I MUST look good and be conceited.
I'm SALVADORIAN, so I MUST be in MS 13.
I'm POLISH, so I MUST be greedy.
I'm HAWAIIAN so I MUST be lazy.
I'm PERUVIAN, so I MUST like llamas.
Im a STONER so i MUST be going in the wrong direction.
I'm a VIRGIN so i MUST be prude.
Im STRAIGHT EDGE so i must be violent.
I'm a FEMALE GAMER, so I MUST be ugly.. or crazy.
I'm BLACK so I MUST love fried chicken and kool-aid.
I'm BI so I MUST think every girl i see is hot.
I'm ASIAN so I MUST have a small penis.
I'm a GIRL who actually EATS LUNCH, so i MUST be fat.
I'm SINGLE so I MUST be ugly.
I'm ASIAN so i must be a NERD that does HOMEWORK 24/7.
I'm CHRISTIAN so I MUST hate homosexuals.
I'm MIXED so i must be SEXY.
I listen to MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE, so I MUST be a scene kid.
I'm MUSLIM so i MUST be covered up at all times.
I'm in ORCHESTRA/BAND, so i must be cool.
I'm BLACK so I MUST believe JESUS WUZ A BROTHA.
I'm MORMON so I MUST be perfect.
I'm Depressed so I MUST be emo and cut myself.

lol?

2006-12-08T21:28:00.000-04:00

I was soooo bored XD

Hm.. I'm listening to "Die toten Hosen" right now..
Hm. I just love them <3>
Hm.. my leg still hurts a lot.. but I really want to play so I give a shit about my damn leg !!

I'm so agressive lately,and so is my whole class. We are the 12th graders and are supposed to graduate this schoolyear and so we are really stressed with all the exams..

I keep on yelling at my fellow classmates which get mad at me and let their agressions out on other persons.

This weekend I won't get out of my house I would say -.-"
And if,than to go to Daniela's house to study math..

Hm.. arg. I hate my life.

Monday: English and Math Exam
Tuesday: History
Wednesday:Biology
Thursday: TOK and Spanish...

Each Exam 1 1/2 hours.
God.
Why can't it be next Friday?????

;__;

2006-12-06T21:02:00.000-04:00

Garfield rocks xD

Today the national soccer selection came to our school. jeje.
I saw Galindo,Salinas,..

But the goalkeeper,Suaréz,didn't come..
Don't know why =/

They use our soccerfields to practice ^___^

Hm..right now I have stomacheache ;__;
Arg.. No idea why. Grr.
Stress? XD

Hm.. I have to write 1/2 page about Cuba and 1/2 a page about Bolivia for History ;__;
And I should do my Spanish Oral..
And finish my Math HW..
But I know myself..
I won't do anything..
I'm just so tired...
I need vacations..seriously!!!
Grr..
and next weeks the finals start..yeah..
4 days full of exams..
gosh..shoot me please <__<>

Uh. Daniela is coming online in a few minutes(hm..actually with her computer in half an hour. XD)

See you then.
And wish me luck.
What for?
For keeping myself alive until next Friday(start of vacations!)

2006-12-05T19:54:00.000-04:00

WILSTERMANN IS CHAMPION!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The footballgame on Sunday was SO awesome..HEHE =) But until now I was to lazy to post :P

The quality is pretty low,but I didn't dare to bring my Digicam and so I made the pics with my cellphonecamea ;)

Anyway,the game was just SO awesome XD
Hm..
I was there with Vlady and Sergio :)

I went there at 11:30,because my cousin called me to tell me,that there were already A LOT of people and that I should hurry to come.
I waited nearly an hour in the line to get just into the stadium <___<
And..the game started at 3:30 XD
So I had to kill time inside.
Sergio and Vlady were talking about something(no idea what o_O""),and I decided to listen to a bit of music and read the newspaper.

Hm.. anyway..it was an absolutely awesome day ;)
But now the championship ended and there won't be games anymore I think.. .__.
Hm.. what a pity.I really enjoyed going there..

2006-11-30T19:40:00.000-04:00

Jenna and Bono playing together. Bono is a three months old Golden Retriever and belongs to Vlady a good friend of mine. He is so huge XD At least twice as big than my little Lab. But I love them both <3>

Me and my best friend Vlady XD He is just such a ass-face :P ^^ And a tree-hugger.And an idiot. XD ^^

Miss Jackie,my Biology teacher. She is not as good as Miss Alejandra,my former biology teacher,but she does her best =)

Hm.. you can hardly seen anything on this pic,but it's me and my friend Andrea :)

Danny Yankee XDD Also a very good friend and no one in the world can give as good massages as he does o_O
I frequently fall asleep when he gives me one lol

Tainah,my brasilian classmate + good friend. I always have a really good time with her =D. She may look innocent,but she is maybe the dirtiest and most perverted person I know XD
Also you can work out excellent plans to kill Miss Paula and Miss Susana with her(hehe)

Daniela"Chucha" Montalvo. My best friend and all-time companion ! Honestly,what would I do without you(and your neighbor *evilgrin*). On the right: Young"el chino" Lee. Leeeeeeeeeee XD hehe. He is from Korea and a real freak.(He is always concerned about his looks and about the latest fashion ^^") But I couldn't live without them.

My Findus XD My slightly stupid and deaf cat. <3Trucho,my always hungry and sometimes pretty annoying cat. Can't live without him <3

That is Jenna. My beloved and absolutely cute Yellow Labrador Retriever.She is now 3 months old and loves to chase my cats(tztztztz). But I just love her <3

Hm.. so.I was kind of in the mood to post some pictures. Hm.. I sometimes dream about that my Austrian Friends would meet my Bolivian ones. It would be SOOOO cool..lol..

Hm.. I enjoy being here so much. Who would have thought that 1 yewar ago? No one I suppose lol
I found people here I really care for and that also care for me.
It's going to be really hard to return to Austria..

Btw. Today there was not school -> national "streik"(what was that in english again? god,i suck so much oO")
And tomorrow there won't be either ->same reason

Hm.. last night I was REEEEEEEEEALLY bad.
I ate something wrong for lunch and spent the whole night in my bathroom puking and s******* like hell o_O
And I nearly passed out.
Grr..
But now I'm better.
My stomache is still hurting but I don't have to run to the bathroom every few minutes.
So. Good night I would say :)

- What is scarier? A cat without a grin,or a grin without a cat?

2006-11-27T20:46:00.000-04:00

Hm...
I still feel so bad..

I can't forget what happened Sunday...
This memory burned itself into my brain.

...

I'm so scared.
And worried.
And not neccessary just about me o_O"
Everytime the phone rings my face turns white and my heart seems to forget how to beat for an instant.
...
How could I do that?
HOW??

Oh god.
I mean, I'm used to screw up, but it has been a while that I screwed up so badly.
If i could just turn back time 24 hours..
Just 24 hours.. and I could stop it.
I could make everything alright..

I'm so terrible sorry..
And I hope you know it..

You say it was also your fault. That we both screwed up.

But you have WAAAAAAAAAY more trouble than me(up to now)..so how can I forgive myself for what had happened...?

Hm.. still.. I have to stay careful..
Maybe I'll get the same troubles.
But..honestly I don't think so.
Why?

Because I'm simply older.

....

God.. and.. I'm sorry for what you've seen.
I just..couldn't resist.
Maybe that's the only real "drug" for me.
The only thing I can't leave behind me.

I would like to promise that I won't do it again.
But I can't.
I mean..it got better...much better.

hm...

Por favor..
no me dejes.
En serio.
Te nececito.. no se que haria sin vos Vla.
Confio en vos..mas que tu talvez crees.
Y aunque parezco rara en algunas ocaciones.. mis sentimientos para vos no han cambiado...
quiero estar con vos..
y solo con vos.
Pero es dificil para mi dejar el pasado atras..

Hm... I'll go to bed now.. It's 9 ..lol.
ay..I don't care.
I want to sleep.And forget.

Hm.. if anyone wants a further explication for this entry..I'm sorry.
There won't be one.
I can't and won't talk about it.

....

2006-11-27T15:53:00.000-04:00

OH MY GOD...

I screwed up so badly..
Fuck it.

I always cause problems...

My heart is not just broken - it is torn into pieces....

2006-11-26T12:33:00.000-04:00

gosh.
I'm gonna go to the soccergame Wilstermann vs. Universitario today !!!

<3 <3 <3 <3 <3

With Vlady and Pollo !!

^___^

2006-11-26T12:10:00.000-04:00

Hm.. yesterday was pretty nice.
I went to a friends house and we played there FIFA 07
God.this game is so cool.lol.
But i definitely need more practice to be able to play against him(yesterday I was in a team with him and we played against his brother and his brother's friend).

Later we had Pizza and some self-made dessert <3 The dessert was soooooooo delicious ..Hehe Honestly ^^ I love his mum's food XD Hm.. I'm glad I feel better know.. I was pretty down on Wednesday.. I still can't believe that such a horrible lie has been told about me. God.I was so angry...but I was even more sad about the fact that it hasn't stopped... I mean..it's going on for several month now,that people(some specific people),tell lies about me.. But this lie from Wednesday..was maybe the worst one.. It was that bad that I actually cried at school. And then Robin told me something her boyfriend had told her about a certain person.. Gosh... after that,the day was over for me.. Hm... but then I got to talk to this certain person and I could explain that it wasn't true. First my friend wasn't convinced..but then he believed me. Hm.. I felt better..I really did. But there was still the thing Robin had told me.. And I didn't have the guts at first to ask the person if it was true.. Finally,on Thursday I could. Kind of. Because this person didn't stop asking what was wrong with me,because I was behaving different... And then I asked. And I really had to pull myself together in order not to cry.. The person grabbed my hands and told me that it wasn't true. I can't recall the feeling I had directly after the person told me that.. I wasn't crying.But I wasn't smiling either. Hm.. so after those two incidents on Wendesday and Thursday I'm so relieved everything is over. It is still hard for me to trust - anyone - but it's getting better I think.I hope. And btw. If anyone is asking him/herself why I always put "person" or so.. Hm(ok.I bet no one did XDD), it is because... hm.. actually why? Hm.. I don't want to give everying about me away and so I prefer not to mention certain names.

Hm..
Or better said: Name

And please forgive my horrible english.Especially today.

2006-11-25T12:34:00.000-04:00

Post vom 21/11/06

The Vines - Outtathaway!

God.Im so fucking damn tired(hm.I tend to swear a lot when I'm tired. I mean,i swear all the time,but if I'm tired it is even worse!)

Hm.. anyway.

I ought to have 3 exams today,but after all i was "lucky" and just had 2.Math was a mess.. Oh god.. It remembered me of my times at Körnerschool..(and that is not good AT ALL!!).

Hm.. over the free days I'm going to study math like mad in order to be prepared for the next exam.

History wasn't that bad. I think I'll get a pretty good grade :P

The third exam should have been Biology,but Miss Jackie decided to work on our recycling project instead.

Hm.. fuck.I did nothing so far for my project XD(OK. the reason could be that I'm in a group with Daniela Montalvo. And both of us are just crazy and lazy freaks lol).

So I would have prefered the Exam.By anyway,I won't deal with Miss Jackie until next Tuesday,because tomorrow is the WALKATHON!

Our school does that every year in order to get money for orphans and stuff.We'll meet tomorrow morning at the country club and then we have to run for about 2 hours I think.For every km we get a certain amount of money. And with about 180 Students participating,I think we'll get enough money to pay for all the orphans from Community Service.

HeheThursday and Friday we won't have school because of Thanksgiving ;)

I can just say"thank you"!

lolHm..anyway.

I talked with a certain person(Eva,you know who I mean).and it turned out ok after all.

I feel so relieved.

Really..

Hm..I was really scared..

Anyway..I'll have a smoke : )

(yeah yeah. I know I'm gonna die of lungcancer :P )

2006-11-20T16:24:00.000-04:00

Hm.
I'm worried.
And I'm not even sure what I'm concerned about.
Is that normal????
Hm..
On one side I'm happy because I feel comfortable,loved,cared for and trusted.
But on the other side,all those feelings turn into one: FEAR.

Fear?
What am I actually fearing?
Being left alone?
By whom?
Oh,you naughty girl...you perfectly know the answer.
...

I'm interpreting to much in some things.
That is how I am.
And exactly THIS makes my life horrible.

I can't trust a person just a moment.
I really can't.

If someones tells me something I think in the same instant what this person could possibly mean.
I try every possibility until I find the worst one and start to feel terrible.

God,they are right.
I'm so weird.

Hm..why does it smell like alcohol inside here?? O___o""

Hm..

>> I want a perfect body,
I want a perfect soul...<< -Radiohead - Creep

Anyway.
Why am I writing all this stuff down?
On the Internet where everyone(ok.the few people who really read this crap XD) can read it.

Honestly because right now I'm to lazy to go up into my room,grab a pencil and write it down on some piece of paper like I normally do when I'm a mood like that.

Call me lazy.
And weird.
And freakish.
And all kind of other names.

And I'll agree to you.

http://www.geocities.com/eyecanspy/weirdoquiz.html <<--- WEIRDO?
(lazy-eyed psycho)

2006-11-17T14:30:00.000-04:00

I did it.
I really did.
But now I'm scared.
Terrible scared...

Oye tu!
Si,te estoy hablando a ti!
Escuchame!
Te amo.
Pero tengo tanto miedo de amarte.
No se como controlar mis sentimientos.
Me confunden.
Y tu también me confundes..
En algunos momentos no se,lo que tu sientes por mi.
Ese me pone triste.
Muy triste.
No se que hacer.
Se que yo hago muchos cosas mal.
Pero eso no es mi intención!
Quiero hacerlo bien.
Pero me sale mal...

Pero te amo!
Enserio.
Y esos sentimientos me dan miedo.
No quiero salir herida ...otra vez.
Porque esta vez no creo que mis heridas van a sanar.
Porque ni mis viejas han sanado por completo..
Por eso.
Ten cuidado con mi corazón..y mi alma.

De mi para ti.

Tonto...

2006-11-14T20:27:00.000-04:00

Hm.
Ok.
Another reason to be pissed of.
I wrote a DAMN LONG entry,and then I closed the window per accident.
God,I'm so stupid.

And not being able to play in the Friendship Games sucks.
And having a C+ in Math sucks.
And having a cast sucks A LOT.
And not being able to tell a certain person something because I'm a fucking chicken is BAD!!
And having a Biology Exam tomorrow pissed me off!!
And moving from the city to this fucking house get's on my nerves.
And not being able to take the green bus anymore sucks.
And feeling so confused is terrible.
And being so insecure makes me sick!
And missing my friends in Austria is just aweful!
And knowing that I have to leave my friends in Bolivia behind in 7 month is just horrible...

Arg.. it's just aweful,terrible,horrible,sickening,sucking and all of them together!!!!

And NO,I don't care about grammatical or spelling mistakes,ok? <___<>
Hihi...i really changed quite a bit.

In Austria I didn't care too much about my grades and I wasn't very interested in football either.
now I'm REALLY concerned about my grades and I just LOVE playing football very deeply.
I can't snowboard here, so I need some other sport.
Volley is just stupid and I'm to small for Basketball.
So soccer is just perfect to me.
And it is SO MUCH fun.
I swear..hehe.
There is nothing better after a hard and annoying schoolday to change your clothes,put your soccer shirt and your shorts on and play football!
When I come bakc to Austria I want to keep playing.Maybe I'll join some soocer club in Linz or Vienna. :)

Hm..anyway.. Whoever reads all that crap(Eva? Lisi? XD).. I'm thinking about staying in Bolivia.
Not for ever.
Not even a year.
But maybe a month more.
Or two.
So i'll come back in August.

I just..
I hated Bolivia at first and you all know that.
But I'm living here now for more than a year.
And I love this country.
With all those weird,freakish,funny and caring people here.
I'm just not ready to leave them behind.
Because probably I'll never see them again.
They became part of my daily life.

Daniela,Rocio,Kathia,Vlady,Danny Yankee,Sue,Andrea,Robin,Jessica,Elodie,Matheo,Mayara,Natascha,Jorge,Claure,Paulo,
Tainah,Josie,...

all those people care for me.
And so do I.

And it breaks my heart to think about leaving them behind.
Just like it nearly killed me to leave all the people in Austria behind.

So I'll lose either way.

If I go back to Austria,I'll miss everyone in Bolivia.
If I stay here.. I'll miss you guys over there =/

What I'm supposed to do?

My plan when I came here,was not to grow to attached to the people here,so I won't suffer.
But it happened.
I got friends here.
Friends a value as much as the ones in Austria...

What should I do?
What?

....

P.S.

Math: C+
Spanish:B
History:A
Biology:A+
English:A

2006-11-14T17:45:00.000-04:00

Just two words:

LIFE SUCKS!

2006-11-08T23:29:00.000-04:00

lol..
I found this on another blog and just had to show it ^^
It's funny what people do when they are bored(and this person was obviously bored when he/she(there are no sexists on this blog!) came up with the idea do do that ^^)

Hm.. today a part of the Spanish A1 Class, acted a part of the play"La casa de Bernarda Alba(Bernarda Alba's House"). It's about the Mother,Bernarda,who lives as widow with her five daughter in a house. There is a lot of jealousy between the sister,because they are in love with the same guy. I'ts pretty good,thought.
Adriana,a girl from 11th, played Bernarda.. She is not very popular,and when she entered the stage,everyone..but really EVERYONE started to laugh.. It was just too funny..*lol*

God.. today at 6 I went to Daniela's House to study Math. But we didn't even bother to open our books(or even take them out of our bags ^^").. We just started talking about a lot of stuff..
And that a lot of things at school annoy the hell out of us..
Because it is a private school,the rules are very strict,but I think they are exaggerating a bit lately.
The dress code get's stricter and stricter. Before,we were allowed to come with the PE uniform to school if we had PE. Now(/and thanks to Mr. Corcoran,our fucking History teacher), we have to come with the normal dress code ,change for PE and after PE we have to change again.
That makes NO sense at all!
God. I hate it..
Or Mrs. Paola (she is the secondary cordinator),called Robins(a 9th grade girl) mother, because she kissed her boyfriend at school. WTF??
I mean, is it bad to kiss someone at school? But anyway, her mother told Mrs. Paola,that she should stay out of it..hehe.. I mean.. they are not smoking at school or drinking(ok.. at least noone catches them smoking XD),so why can't they express their feelings towards each other at school?
"Because the little ones will ask what they are doing."
What excuse it that?
Gr... she really needs to get laid. Seriously.

But anyway.. everyone is getting on my nerves lately.
And it's not different with other people. Daniela is also pissed of at everyone.
And the rest of the class. And the whole school.
It just sucks to see each other at least 7 hours a day, 5 days a week. And with all the social problems at school,the stress and the fear of the exams,ste stupid rules.. it's just too much..
We need a break - we need vacations.
But vacations start December,15. So more than a month..
Fuck it.

And next week the Friendship games start in Cochabamba.
We have a Boys and a Girls Soccer Team and the same in Volley.

I'm in the Girls Soccer Team and I think we really would have chances to win.
But the biggest problem is,that if we make on mistake,the whole team get's more nervous and we make even more mistakes!
I don't want to brag(I'll do it anyway :P), but I'm one of the best players of the team.
So is Robin. And we are both playing defense.
Rocio is also a exelent player. And she plays middlefield.
So.Who should make the goals?
Flavia is in attack and so is Yanina.
But Flavia hasn't enough practice(It's her first year), and Yanina is playing dreadful lately. It's a shame.
So we play defense.
But how are we supposed to win that way?
Majo is fast,but she has no direction kicking the ball and isn't strong enough.
Natascha hasn't enough practice... and Evelyn? She is not fast enough I think.(God..i still hate her... HATE her... grrrrrrrrr). Leaves us with Natalie. But her position is also middlefield.. Hm...
A possibily would be,to put Natalie in the attack and Daniela in middlefield. She plays to much with the field in the area,so defense wouldn't be to intelligent. And in attack.. she is not fast enough for that position. The problem is,that playing middlefield,you have to run A LOT!
Hm... god.. I don't know what to do.. I really want to win ;___;

The boys team is really good thought. And their star is and will always be Paulo(ok.until he graduates XD). He wasn't able to participate in the Last Friendship games in Santa Cruz, because he had a couple of F's, and you weren't supposed to have even one...
The same happened with Vlady.. who is also an excelent player.

Vlady has not a single F,so he will be able to play.
But Paulo has one in Math.. and he has only one chance to get a D...
And this is the Quiz on Friday.

For the sake of the soccerteam and the whole school, me and Daniela decided to help him out(again.lol.). We're going to teach him math well enough to pass the exam with a C or a B ..
God.. we just NEED him on the team.
It is just unbelievable how good he plays..

Hm..ok.
I think i wrote enough for today.lol..
See you soon.

2006-11-08T17:33:00.000-04:00

Te doy mi corazon.
Te lo entrego.Solo a ti.

Se, que está un poco dañado.
Y roto.
Por eso me duele tanto.

Pero te lo doy a ti.
Espero que lo cuides bien.
Puede ser que lo puedes curar.
Nunca se sabe.
Aunque está muy roto.

Mi corazon me duele mucho.
Te lo doy a ti.
Para que lo abrazes.
Para que te quedas con el.

Me ha costado en confiar en ti.
Porque he dado mi corazon ya a otras personas.
Y algunas de ellas me rompieron corazon.
Y ahora vivo con el corazon roto.
Asi que..
por favor.

Toma mi corazon y cuidalo bien!

Te lo suplico.

De:mi
A:ti

No es un poema.
Es lo que siento.
Mi miedo de ser herida otra vez...

2006-11-06T18:42:00.000-04:00

Soo...
I got my new glasses today.lol
I lost my old ones and I'm not even sure if I lost them in Bolivia or Austria O_o

But the new ones I just have to use when I'm reading or on the computer(so..24/7 lol )

Placebo - The Bitter end

It was the first Placebo Song I got to know and I still love it <3
It's just so amazing(The song and the video)

Today I HAVE to do my Biology Lab and my 14 chapters for Spanish.
Damn it. I'm so fucking lazy.
I had a week and I didn't do it >_<
grr.
I'm so mad at myself.

Ahaha..
Yesterday I went to a soccer game.
Wilstermann vs. Bolivar
And Wilster won 2:0 <3
My whole family is Wilsterfan so i kinda "have to be" one o_O""""

But I had a pretty good time,because I went their with Vlady and we met there Pollo,Sergio,Natalie and Mati.. hehehe
But about 10 minutes before the first half was over, the fans found some way to come in, into the stadium even when there wasn't any place left(and about 30,000 people enter there) and they just stood in front of us.The thing was, that we were sitting in the first row and so there was hardly any chance to see the game.grrr
But we had a good time anyway ^^
And later on I went to his house and we watched a movie(Wedding crashers..lol.. ).

so..
I'll get going to do my hw o_O"
See you then ;)

2006-11-03T19:20:00.000-04:00

The Vines - Ride

I just can't get that song out of my head.
Ride with me
Ride with me
Ride with me.. *sing*(or at least trying to :P)

Unlike my friends in Austria(Evaaaa XD waiiiiiiii),I had to go to school today.
But after all it wasn't that bad.
Alvaro,our soccer coach, was sick and so me and Robin decided to stay after school to watch the boys playing.
But after about 20 minutes we realized that the girls also were playing (but with another coach) and that we just hadn't seen them.
And the boys coach is a damn sexist <__<
The Boys had a soccergame,but they didn't have enough players.. so me and Robin asked to play with them..
but he told us, that there is no way he would let us play,'cause we're girls <__<
Hijo de puta.
But anyway..
so Robin and me played a bit with the other girls,but decided then to ditch soccer and watch the boys play.
So we wen't over to the other field and started to bother Robin's boyfriend Matheo XD
He's really cool and I hope all of us will go out someday.
Maybe even tomorrow. Because tomorrow is Andrea's Birthday(19!!) and we'll go out certainly(muahahaha). Robin told me that there will be a rave and maybe we'll go..(ok.i HATE rave.. but i'll do it for andrea lol )

so.. have to get going.
I'll go catch a movie with some friends ;)

See u then.

2006-11-02T10:50:00.000-04:00

God.
I'm so bored right now. Just can't help it. My dad and my mum left today in the morning without telling me where they are going. On one hand I'm glad,because I can use the computer without being bugged every few minutes by them, but on the other hand there no food in this house and I'm damn hungry.
Grrrr.

Hach..
I'm still on my Placebo Trip XD
I just love the Band and Brian Molko's voice is just irresistible <3

----

Oh, my dad came home.lol
He's with my uncle in the living room.
Bah.

God,I have so much homework to do,but I'm simply to lazy to start doing it.
Its a whole bunch for Spanish,a lab for Biology and at least 5 pages for Math >__<
God..why I'm such a lazy person?
Instead of hanging in front on the computer I could start working,but I know myself pretty good.
I will start doing it after dinner and I'll finish at midnight -.-"

Arg..
I'm so bored here..

Daniela left to La Paz to visit her sister..
Andrea..no clue what she is up to...
and Vlady is at home.
But i don't think he'll be able to hang around today,because he's going to move in with his dad today.
arg.

Life sucks.

2006-11-01T21:56:00.000-04:00

So.
Back again ;)

Today was a great day,but yesterday was even better.. jeje

Yesterday was Halloween at school and we just passed the first 4 periods. But we didn't really pass classes,we were just hanging around and getting ourselves ready for later.

Through the whole day I just ate candy XD
That's maybe the reason why I got so hyper and started to bother everyone.lol

Robin,me,Matheo and Vlady started to fool arounda lot.
I don't know Matheo to well,but he seems like a really nice guy ;)
I'm glad that he's Robin's boyfriend.

And today some "Gringo" came to visit the school. He was sent by the IB to check the school out o_O
lol
I had a really nice time with Vlady today,because in Recess we talked a lot and in lunch we were hanging around with the others to play soccer.

We wanted to hang around in te afternoon a bit,but he had a fight(again) with his mum about moving to his dad.
So he's moving for sure now to his dad.Tomorrow.
But without his brothers I think.

Poor guy.. he's really nice,one of my best friends,and has to go through all that..
=/

But maybe we'll do something tomorrow.
I hope so ^^

Got Sofffi's letter today.
=D

i was SO glad.. ^__^
But someone already opened it o_O
And I have no clue who.
Maybe the Bolivian..eh.. Zoll?

Arg.. My aunt doesn't want to leave.
It is just soooo damn boring with them here...I mean..i really like her.. but I'm tired and I want to relax ;__;

So..
see you later :P

2006-10-30T17:28:00.000-04:00

Hello there!

So,my first entry here and honestly I have nothing interesting to say =/
But anyway,I'll figure something out .*jeje*

Today was kinda boring at school. David picked my up from my home and I just listened to some music until arriving at school.
Then first period:Math.
*sigh*
I thought i had an F on my Test,but actually I got an C+ ;)
But up to now I'll work harder in order to get better grades again(I got kinda used to A and B :P).

Later English. We were supposed to watch a movie(The Pianist <3),>

After English we had Spanish... and she gave us a HUGE exam o__O
God.. it it was so long.. didn't finish.
So i have to finish it on Friday.

Then Recess. Talked a bit to Robin,Vlady,...
Quite fun ^^

So. I don't want to talk about the rest of my schoolday. I'm just to lazy to do so :P

But anyway. I came home and Jenna,my little Puppy(she is an golden Lab) was waiting for me.Just like my two cats.
And after 1 1/2 i have internet again.jeje
I'm so glad XDDDDD

So. today I have to go to Danielas House so that we can work on our Recycling Project for Biology.
God..i wanna have a smoke.
So baaaaaaadly ;_;
Lucky Strike...or at least Marlboro..
*whine*

So. Vlady went right now with Danny to the Tattoostudio.
He wants a tattoo on his lips!!
This guy's so crazy/Danny)
So.
I'll try to write frequently here because it seems kinda fun(at so I also train my english skills XD)

So.
Farewell ;)